regreting everything but whatever

i kinda am but nah hahaha

at least a test of my will and everything and i dunno

i still have ahmmm a lot of yknow what hehe

jst trying to make me way by the world and besides, why help anybody who wouldn't wanna be helped anyway...

hmmm... i'll miss you people but hey, i'll see you at the top or somewhere

(m)E! online

my intro at kb893.com's message board.. well, it's kinda really me hahaha so post, post, post... my blog anyway

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hi im Kim, im a SHE-male having no bOObs & all
im 23 & crap, what else do you wanna know bout me?

Im not gonna say anything bout how i look since we're doing this online and all. Im just gonna stay stuff bout my personality ONLINE...

Really, i dont give a damn about my posts. Its like im just having fun, posting truths and half truths esp those kinky stuff. I mean unless done in reality, i really dont take sex seriously. I'll blabber pretty much anything about it, im not doing it anyway while im posting my message & stuff so WHY CARE? & for that people kinda judge me and PRESUME stuff which really aren't real. Again, i don't give a damn, crap or whatever AS LONG as your life & my life aint affecting each other then YOU & I can do anything we want to do.

I am quite sensitive and i can easily burst in flames, become a ravaging tiger especially if somebody tries to attack me ESPECIALLY if i haven't done anything BAD or offensive or stuff to them. Beware coz ive the PRIDE which i wont and never will allow to be stepped on. I mean cmon, what'll you get if you attack me? (oh but then again you'll be famous coz im gonna make a THREAD just for you or even yet a POEM!) >:-) Just stay out of my freakin way or ill tear you up in pieces with my little cutie claws

Hmmm what else? oh, im Ms KNOW-IT-ALL here. I say stuff & ul think im trying to overpower you (oh cmon, cant u just accept that ur a dimwit? hehehe kiddin) but really, im just sharing ideas. IDEAS & FACTS are different so if ever you are affected, not my fault. Ive just been thru stuff which armed me the crap i say ;-)

Just say, be openminded so as to not be hurt and stuff, im trying my best to be considerate & all anyway. Just that I dont really say stuff which doesnt have a point. Just dont read my post if you don't like wat yer reading hehehe

And im Ms ENGLISH teacher/dean here hahaha Dont ahmm get hurt if i laugh at yer grammar. I just find it funny but im not gonna attack u for that. im just gonna roll over, laughing my butt off and thank you bcoz i really dont laugh that easy

i think that is enough. Since we're all new here, im a newbie too. Im not gonna shoo you off if you're being rude & stuff since i can always just ask dear ole (no names allowed) to ban you LOL

See yah in the threads!

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trying this one out...

i'd like to thank my sponsors =D

LOVing or being IN LOVE

just a post a year ago… I just like reading it so i post it here… (kinda like arcives for things i like)
I’d like to be reminded too, just in case i would (finally) be in a (serious, forever lasting) relationship (yeah right!!!)
"It’s definitely different when you love someone and when you’re inlove with someone"
explanation:
alin nga ba ang mas malalim?
Loving someone or Being in love with someone?
marami sa atin ang na confuse tungkol dito.
Ikaw ba ay may girlfriend o boyfriend ngayon?
Mahal mo ba siya pero parang may isang tao na parang mahalaga din sayo o may mahal ka na akala mo eh mahal mo nga siya pero meron ka pa rin isang tao na minamahal ng totoo?
Kapag love mo ang isang tao masaya ka..
Feeling mo ok na ang lahat… pero ang ma-inlove ka, ang siyang pinakamasakit sa lahat!
Kasi ang mga taong inlove ay ang mga taong nagsasakripisyo at nagpaparaya.
Teka bakit ka nga ba ngpaparaya?
Dahil ba hindi ka niya mahal o dahil hindi ka siguradong ok lang sa kanya?
Kung yan ang dahilan mo, walang duda na inlove ka nga sa kanya.
Kasi iniisip mo kung anong meron kayo sa ngayon ang tanging mahalaga at kontento ka na.
Pero isipin mo paano kung mawala ang taong yon at talagang hindi na kayo mag-usap at magkita, kaya mo ba?
Paano naman kung sayo siya inlove at ibinigay niya ang lahat para sayo pero hindi mo napahalagahan ang lahat ng ito kaagad?
Paano kung isang araw naguluhan na siya sayo ng husto at maisipang lumayo na lang?
Paano kung sa sobrang pagiging iba mo sa kanya di ka na niya kausapin at tuldukan na niya ng tuluyan kung ano na ang meron kayo?
Then bigla mong na realize kung gaano kaimportante sayo ang bawat isa kaya lang wala na siya!
Kaya mo ba?
Kung hindi ang sagot mo, malinaw na inlove ka nga…
Paano naman pag mahal mo lang, alam mo na palagi kang may choice, ayaw mo siyang mawala dahil alam mong wala kang ipapalit.
Yung masaya ka sa kanya pero sa gabi hindi naman siya ang iniisip mo.
Mahal mo siya pero aminado ka sa sarili mo na balang araw hindi siya ang pakakasalan mo.
Mahal mo siya pero ang puso mo hindi lang pra sa kanya..
Mahal mo at masasaktan ka pagnawala siya pero alam mo na kaya mo yon.
Ngayon anong nararamdaman mo ngayon: DO YOU LOVE SOMEONE or YOU’RE INLOVE WITH SOMEONE?
Isang araw magigising ka na lang na INLOVE ka na nga pero kahit anong gawin mo ay huli na.
Dahil maaaring yung taong INLOVE din sayo ay wala na pala.
Tandaan mo: Masyadong mapaglaro ang puso huwag tayo magpaloko!!!
We learn to love someone pero minsan lang dumating sa atin ang pagkakataong ma-inlove!!!
Kaya kapag dumating ito, ano ang gagawin mo?

of course, GWAPA jud ta

a post by a friend at kb893.com’s messageboard (again)
It’s cute, kinda vain but hey, bahala na hahaha… We’re all beautiful in our own little way.  It’s also a good way to cope up with broken relatiochips too, helps people move on and stuff… Well, gwapa ko hahaha (naa man jpon ng-ingon beh) so i post it here hehehe
Before, hinahabol kita pero di mo ako pinapansin.
Tapos isang araw nawala ako, hinanap mo ako at tinanong, "Bakit ka nagsawa?" Ngumiti ako, "Hindi ako nagsawa. Natauhan lang." Pwede mo kong lokohin pero wag kang magpapahuli sakin. Pwede mo kong palitan pero siguraduhin mong mas mahal mo siya sakin. Pwede mo kong iwan pero siguraduhin mong kaya mo. Kasi pag ako sobrang nasaktan, wala ka nang babalikan.
Ang Boys? Pag trip ka, magpapakilala. Kaibigan kuno hanggang pumorma na.Tapos pag nahulog ka na, ayun, goodbye na dahil sawa na sila. Pero dapat walang iiyak at smile lang tayo. Punyeta, anong silbi ng karma?
I fell in love and got hurt but I didn’t shed too much tears nor did I ask him to love me again. Instead, I stood up proudly and said, "Ganyan talagaang magaganda! Hindi bagay sa tanga!"
Simple lang para hindi ka masaktan. Kapag minahal ka, mahalin mo din. Kapag ginago ka, gaguhin mo rin.
Pero kapag umiyak ka, tanga ka! Ginago ka na nga, iiyakan mo pa?
Pag iniwan ka ng mahal mo, wag mo siyang sisihin!
Kausapin mo siya ng harap-harapan at sabihin mong, "Ingat, tanga ka pa naman!"
Masakit pag iniwan ka ng mahal mo. Pero wag kang magagalit ng husto. Kahit papano may pinagsamahan naman kayo, diba? Kaya for the last time yakapin mo siya at ibulong mo, "Gago, kukulamin kita!"
Girls, talo daw tayo sa mga boys? Papayag kayo?
Sige, pag niligawan tayo, sagot agad. Pag iniwan tayo? Ok lang.
Kapag sinabi nilang, "Uy, ex ko.", alam niyo sagot diyan? "Ay, ambisyoso."
If the one you love doesn’t love you back, don’t get depressed. Just think about it for a while, maybe cry a bit then wipe your tears and say, "Ang weird naman niya. Di siya pumapatol sa magaganda!"
You only got one life so live it well., one heart so take good care, one soul so keep it pure.
One boyfriend? What a waste! Make it two or more!
Sayang ganda natin!
Pag sinabi sayo ng mahal mo na ayaw na niya sayo, hayaan mo lang. Wag kang iiyak at magpapakagago!
Imbis na iyakan mo siya, ngitian mo lang at sabihin mo ang ganito, "So, pano? Bye na! Naghihintay na ang kapalit mo!"
Who cares about break-ups? Oo nga, masakit. Makirot sa puso. Pero tandaan mo: a break-up isn’t only an end to a relationship. It’s also a beginning of a new one and an end to a living hell called "ex".

–CHEATERS–

from kb893.com’s message board… (askmen.com)
Cheating…. he very main reason why i’m not and won’t be (hopefully) in a relationship anymore. Mahn is it hard to find a sane maan, what more a loyal one… Just some practical approach again so i dunno, read on (again…)
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Let me guess; you did a double take when you read the title of this article, right? I’m not condoning cheating in a relationship, nor denying that it’s wrong to cheat. I’m merely suggesting that in some cases, cheating may be beneficial to a relationship.
So why am I writing about such a controversial issue? Because most men and women cheat on their partners at some point in a relationship, and they need to be informed that cheating has at least an ounce of redeeming value. Cheating is not always bad; surprisingly, it can help to improve current relationships.
I’m not implying that every man should go out and be unfaithful, nor am I implying that all men cheat on every woman they date. All it means is that at some point, the little head overpowers the big head and men venture into forbidden territory.
why do we cheat?
Cheating generally means that you are not fully satisfied with your current partner or you feel that something is missing in the relationship. If you were completely in love and happy within your relationship, then why would you jeopardize all that you have for a five-minute fling with the girl next door?
When men cheat, it basically means that they are looking for something their girlfriend or wife is not providing. Often times, it comes down to sex.
Discover the benefits of cheating… 
Men are explorers…
A lot of men who are in serious relationships usually end up cheating after a couple of years. The reason is simple; men stuck in long-term relationships feel they are missing out on something. Most of the time, these men cheat because they are frustrated and need to get it out of their systems.
Men also like to explore and try new things. The benefit in this case is that once men do cheat, they realize that it is nothing special and probably won’t do it again. This prevents them from being unfaithful later on when the stakes are higher (like when they have a family).
Home sweet home
When people are in a relationship for a long time, they can’t help but start taking their significant other for granted. Sometimes they forget just how great the woman they have really is. Men forget how wonderful it feels to have someone who loves them unconditionally. Cheating usually involves lustful feelings of physical attraction; nothing long-term.
The result is that once men are unfaithful, they will lie in bed and think relentlessly about their unsuspecting partner. Why? Because the lust factor has worn away and the reality didn’t measure up to the fantasy. Instead, they remember the good reality; the woman who loves them, bakes them cookies and makes love to them. The old saying "you don’t know what you’ve got till it’s gone" says it all.
Nothing lasts forever…
The most underrated benefit of cheating is that it opens a man’s eyes to the realization that his relationship is no longer nurturing and should be terminated. Some people remain blind to the fact that their relationship is "on the rocks" and the only way they can finally realize that it’s not going to work out is through cheating. It’s a shame that some men have to go to this extreme to see the reality: that they’re no longer satisfied with their situation.
Let’s face it, nothing lasts forever and about 95% of relationships, married or not, end (i.e. if you date 9 women before you ever marry, your failure rate is 90%, assuming the marriage lasts). When you do break up, you will probably have a lot of regrets, especially concerning all the girls you missed out on — especially if she’s a six-foot tall Swedish model.
So what did you learn from my point of view? That cheating is disrespectful towards the person you’ve cheated on, but at the very least, it has two beneficial aspects to it.
First, that you’ll realize your mistake and appreciate your lover a lot more after the horrible deed.
The second is that cheating can help you realize your misery within your current relationship, and will likely give you that necessary shove to move on and stop wasting both your lover’s and your own time.
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Hmmm… now what is wrong here? oh yeah, MAN… men, men, MEN!!! WTF can’t they include women here?… This is too egoistic and so undermining of the opposite sex. As if women can’t cheat too…  Gheez!

Anyway, not that i’m a cheater but provided the instance of a cheating lover then, the number game is on baby!  If you can do it, well, i can do it even better…

But then again, why be narrow and shallow and go down your level? If you don’t like me, not satisfied with me, then you ain’t man enough for me. That SIMPLE! Duh…

And if you think you can just come back? nah ah… There ain’t no second chances with me.   Surely, not with this bitch… =)

the SUCKER when it comes to LOVE

something I answered way back September 27, 2005 a Tuesday at 5:10 pm and my reaction to it… daymn i’m catching up on all me unposted blogs hahaha
How YOU (I) are in LOVE

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.
You tend to take more than give in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you’re with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don’t try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren’t loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.
>>>Dang! Haha Grrr… what they say bout me is true then huh? Do i really fall that fast? I don’t know, not really UNLESS I find something worth loving in em. I mean, i don’t just LOVE instantly, i only TRUST instantly, as in a 100%.
That’s how gullible I am? NOPE! Definitely not… I just don’t see any benefit in lying and can’t see why people are doing that LYING thing so much… COWARDS! That’s all I can say to em…
And is what’s posted above true? Well, only the person I love can find out…
But who am I kidding.. I ain’t gonna LOVE again.. I PROMISED and SWORED!
hahaha SWOREd not SWEARed… Now there is a reason why i chose that word…
LOTS OF LUCK! =)

– See? I really am trying my best not to fall in love even way way back but then I did. i swallowed what i wrote and sworeD like about 2 weeks later? hahaha Think about avoiding but still falling… Gheez… Im a hopeless wreck hahaha

SEX & LOVE... A reality check

a post at kb893.com's forum...

Very enlightening, so why not post it here?

Very significant for virgins and would be or pretend virgin hypocrites hahaha

read on and GOOD LUCK!

Why Men want Sex and Women Want Love
by Elena Solomon
author of 12 Simple Rules

Men are frustrated with women because they never want sex.
Women are frustrated with men because they always want sex.

Women blame men that they don't know how to love.
Men blame women that they only talk about love but don't want to make it.

Whether you are a man or a woman, reading this article can change your life - finally, you will be able to get rid of your frustrations about the opposite gender.

The reason humans want sex is due to the hormone testosterone, which is predominantly male hormone. A normal male's body produces 20 times more of this hormone than a female's.

In other words, a male feels the same way after one day without sex as a female after 20 days without sex. A male that has not had sex in 20 days feels the same way as a female after more than a year without sex.

Knowing this simple difference, you can already understand the pain of the opposite gender. It's NOT their fault: they are made this way! It's in our genes! This is the reason why men are men and women are women.

Men and women are DIFFERENT.
Not better or worse, just different.

A man can father a child every time he has sex, and a woman can only mother a child every two years or so. This means, a woman HAS TO be picky about who she allows to have sex with her.

For generations women were paying too high a price for making a wrong choice. Women that have chosen men with bad genes had a weaker offspring and their children struggled to survive. Women that have chosen men with good genes had a stronger offspring and their children survived disproportionably. Those children were carrying their picky mother's genes and this is why those female genes were passed to us.

On the other hand, men never had adverse consequences of making a wrong choice. The more children they produced, the higher was their chance to pass their genes to future generations, as some of them would certainly survive. While men were determined to seek better genes too, they had to grab all chances to procreate coming their way to ensure their genes would be passed forward. The men that ONLY stuck with one woman (even a high quality woman) were losing genetically to the men that used all of their opportunities and had many more children that survived. Those children were carrying their father's promiscuous genes, and this is why those male genes were passed to us.

By Nature men are made to seek as much sex as they can get, so they can spread their seed wider.

By Nature women are made to seek as many admirers as they can get, so they can make a better choice and get the best seed.

Men seek quantity - women seek quality.

This is why men seek sex and women seek love.

Love is the proof that a woman needs to have some assurance that the man will stick around and help her with the upbringing of the offspring. For a woman, sex is the culmination of her emotional commitment to a man.

For a man, sex is a physical act that eases the testosterone pressure he experiences constantly. Only after this tension has gone, can a man feel love towards a woman. This is why it often happens that men disappear after they got what they wanted: it wasn't love; it was the testosterone pressure. Sex for men is the reality check of their passion.

This is why having sex early in the relationship is hazardous for women: the man has not had the time to develop any romantic feelings for her. He needs time to develop those feelings, and the only way to do it is through keeping the sexual tension going for as long as practicable. Sex must be attainable, nearly possible - but not quite. When the sexual tension is at its peak, its release is mind-blowing - and once is never enough, which lays a proper foundation for a future relationship - and love.

Men fall in love through sex; women fall in sex through love.

All of this happens on the unconscious level - we do NOT realize what's going on.

But the reason why you are here today and alive is because each and every of your ancestors, men and women, acted true to their instincts and managed to attract at least one sexual partner and produce an offspring.

So, there is no need to be bitter about men wanting sex and women wanting love. Those two are the necessary pieces of the puzzle called Survival Of The Species.

And you'll be better off understanding what the other gender is going through and giving them exactly what they want: a mind-blowing sex or exhilarating love.