Tuesday, March 14, 2006

If it is written, then it is true...

"If It Is Written, Then It Is True..."

It's what Matthew Broderick said in a movie after somebody read hiS journal without his consent. And i write because i find it odd that it is somewhat true. True because people give a big deal about something that is written, thinking that one wouldn't go through such trouble writing something that isn't true.

Now why is it so? Why is it that people believe one's IDEAS once written are true. So is it really true? Like if i say you are dumb, would that mean you really are dumb? One is always entitled to ones thoughts and these thoughts REALITY varies from one individual to another individual. Others would agree to what you're saying or noticed while others just didn't see what you saw. There is a reason why ideas are not called FACTS because not all of em are TRUE or ACCEPTABLE.

Misunderstanding, miscommunication, has always been the reason of war. But how bout being JUDGMENTAL when one hasn't heard one's reason, one's side, and all the side of the story(?), doesn't that count too? Why do people always judge even before they get to know what's behind a certain thing? Why do they have to be inconsiderate with other people? Why can't they be a lil nice and make living on this world less painful, less difficult? Does seeing people in pain, in anguish, bring Joy and Happiness?

Argh i dont know. All i know is that Im not being one or if I am being one and was one, i wanna say "SORRY" for them whose life i've made complicated...

And as for me, well, there are certain things that i write which are true and there are some which aren't. Maybe because of humor and of i dont know, wanting to spice some things up. People would really tend to think low of you esp if you post or say stuff (forums) which are bout SEX and all related things to it.

But why can people not put in mind that saying is very DIFFERENT from doing. Saying stuff doesnt always mean people do or DID what they say. I mean whatever would be the use of "ONE MUST PRACTICE WHAT THEY PREACH" if people really are doing those that they say they will do?

Argh Lameness, narrow, shallow, dense, whatever...
They just torment me so much...
CRAP!

Monday, March 13, 2006

SUPERFICIAL

would you choose to be Beauty
or be contented as the Beast?

Beauty has evrybody's eyes on her
and Beast has them too but, scorns
Beast of course, feels insecure and inferior
Beast has no ego, not a pride
not even a face to hold up high.

Beauty of course has this, FACE
which everybody adores and sometimes praise
And yet she is aloof, and is but alone
despises people who're after what's superficial
believed beauty should come from inside
but she's sad, seems this very beauty hides...

And time, fate, does crossed their paths
talking bout opposites, attract...
What separates them, only but eyes can see
a feeling but binds them
a feeling not everybody sees...

and yet something came
and it seems to break them apart
standards and culture dictates
does that mean they have to, say, separate?

Beast's ego was touched
and it was but Beauty's fault
she touched his pride
though she only meant
to open his mind wide.

a broken self esteem, he says..
you don't have to say what beast knows
you like slapped his face
a friend queen says

how LAME Beauty thought
why doesn't these people get what i see
superficial might matter to them
but, it never ever matters to me

for when one has a face, you can never see
the real motive a person, has for thee
for beauty has been used
she's been really hurt and torned apart
beauty vowed not to trust again
beauty cried and held on to her heart

Beauty loves Beast
but Beast's ego prevented him to see
the real love she has for him,
and the beauty he had inside
which only Beauty can see...

made: November 10, 2005 1606
argh... haha yep, the poet in me comes out if im low, or high or whatever...
and i made this for someone i was once with, someone whom i loved but kinda kidded around thinking that his godly ego would like come down from where it was only to uncover that he hasn't any and that i was making his pain his whatever plummet way down...
i mean i was hurt too, because i thought he has accepted his self as what it is. It really isnt that NICE a site but how lame to just base love and everything as to what's superficial? I mean i was like did you just come to me bcoz of what you see outside? Wasn't my love, my presence enough, doesn't it make up for those he lacks?
how can one ever love somebody else if he doesn't love his own?
i dont know but I am sorry for what i did and i hope that someday he'll realize that there's something in him that i saw. I hope he sees that too...

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

the SUCKER when it comes to LOVE

something I answered way back September 27, 2005 a Tuesday at 5:10 pm and my reaction to it... daymn i'm catching up on all me unposted blogs hahaha

How YOU (I) are in LOVE

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.
You tend to take more than give in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

>>>Dang! Haha Grrr... what they say bout me is true then huh? Do i really fall that fast? I don't know, not really UNLESS I find something worth loving in em. I mean, i don't just LOVE instantly, i only TRUST instantly, as in a 100%.

That's how gullible I am? NOPE! Definitely not... I just don't see any benefit in lying and can't see why people are doing that LYING thing so much... COWARDS! That's all I can say to em...

And is what's posted above true? Well, only the person I love can find out...

But who am I kidding.. I ain't gonna LOVE again.. I PROMISED and SWORE!

LOTS OF LUCK! =)

-- See? I really am trying my best not to fall in love even way way back but then I did. i swallowed what i wrote and sworeD like about 2 weeks later? hahaha Think about avoiding but still falling... Gheez... Im a hopeless wreck hahaha

Thursday, September 22, 2005

FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS

friends with benefits:
1. Two fairly close, or very close friends have the hots for one another. they do have some sort caring for one another, but it is not one of a romantic couple.a man and a woman who don't enjoy commitment like to fool around with one another because they find each other attractive.
2. This is another word for a Booty Call. Usually 1 person ends up getting hurt (the female) because her feelings become involved. Its rare for the man to get hurt because most men dont confuse feelings with sex like us women do. If you think you can accept this type of relationship thinking it will evolve into something more later, you are wrong! Expect alot of CLOSING TIME calls. That means the bar is closed and he didnt find anything better so he calls you for booty.
3. A safe relationship, that mimics a real partnership but is void or greatly laking jealousy and other such emotions that come with a serious relationship.
8. A physically involved relationship, where both partners enjoy some comforts of sitting on the fence between serious relationship and simple friendship.
9. Any realtionship that can only be catagorized as being between Friends and Partners, also refered to as More then friendsTwo people break up over complictaions of a serious relationship and decide to continue their relationship a step down, but not far enough as to have physical bounderies.
10. friends with benefits When men only want sex and don't want to commit to the woman they're having it with.


She's good enough to fuck, but not good enough to be my
girlfriend. Therefore, we are friends with benefits.


>> Some stuff i collected about FWB's way back June 10, 2005. Why was i interested in finding out what it really is? I don't really know, I can't really remember what I was thinking or what felt when I looked it up. All I know is that I've been into this kind of relationship.
Yep, most of it or the top reason for having it is because of SEX, the chemistry. The commitment, I don't really know what's the reason behind it but for me, the reason was not entirely on sex. I wasn't ready for the relationship because there was someone else I really love, and was hoping to finally fullfill or realize the 5years of loving the person. The formality of the BF-GF thing.

I'm not really stressing on the sex here, but the reason or something to say defend the dirty impression people will think once they know I've been into one. (i mean 'em it was more than one). Oh well, I've my reason, and that was what i stated above and aside from that, I was looking for the affection, the person (i mentioned above) couldn't give to me. I mean I was in love, and I was hoping (turned out to be false hopes) that "mag-KAMI". I refer to this person as the "LOVE OF MY LIFE" that's why I couldn't give in to the BF-GF relationship my FWB's asked of me.

Two of the FWB's I've had was just more on the sex, but one, flourished... It grew to something else, LOVE(?) Well it was, budding, starting love, if only I've realized it sooner, well, it would have made it to us. The other one, was just ALL FOR SEX. We just couldn't resist each other, as in the chemistry's way too strong too fight. Did it grew to something else? I don't really know, maybe its in the process but since I haven't been seeing the guy for some time, I couldn't really weigh if it made it to something else...

But see, the real benefit here, the real benefit that I saw was that there is SOMEONE you could run to. Someone you could tell EVERYTHING. Your feelings, the people you've been with or even tell bout your SO or someone you really really love (someone who means the world to you), or your crush, or someone you like... Because there really are some things you have to keep from your SO esp if its about someone else (you do get tempted or face it, your just human, your bound to be attracted to someone other than your SO, worse even have a relationship other than your SO) because you don't want to loose em or that you are afraid they'll retaliate, or that they'll hate you(believe me they will, only a chosen few wont and will forgive you). They will get hurt, they won't listen, you won't be able to really tell them the story behind it and it'll just lead to more confusion and stuff.

That's the real benefit behind it. You'll reveal your every all and you'll feel good and be thankful that they'll understand. BUT, then the problem starts there too. You'll then begin to admire your FWB for understanding, for listening and he'll admire you and realize that you're something so then you fall in love. Then you'll be beating around the bush (as to what i stated above) You then won't be able to tell this FWB everything because they'll get hurt, because you'll want em to love you or have a relationship with em. He'll then start telling you not to do this and stuff, not to see this person, that he should be the only person you'll see blah blah blah...

i don't really know how to end this, i just want to keep on talking but it'll just end up too long to read. So I'll leave you with this, If ever you want to be in a FWB situation, think about it, or don't think, just imagine what confusion you'll be in. Oh well, its your life and whatever will do for a person...

Im just sharing some views, and some tips.. A listening ear and a open mind works really good. The ears are made to listen, so do just that and don't let everything you hear come out your mouth. You'll never know and understand the real story unless you finish it, all sides of it...

Life, its just one of the many complications of life =)

Thursday, September 15, 2005

MUST LOVE DOGS

A movie bout my life? Hahaha I wish i was that important that they'd make a movie outta me but hey, it still is kinda me.And why I watched it? Well, my officemates told me to watch it. I could very well relate to the story DAW! And since i haven't been in moviehouses for a while, i did just what they wished. Saw it, had a date with ma self...
And mahn, was i touched!Wow! It really was me, and i did have that very same views as the lead actress (Diane Lane) portrayed. I did those stuff, except for that pretend to be someone else, photoshop bods or pics and claim to be someone i'm not thing. I did advertise myself over some chatroom o'er cable before. But I didn't like described myself. For fun purposes only. Meet someone, make new friends, and acquaint old friends (since I've been chatting there since it started, was one of em prominent chatters)
I mean, does that really depict desperateness? Was I desperate? I might've been. I mean can't it just directly imply that the advertiser just wants SOMEONE to LOVE and do those romantic stuff with?
Why does people use it to lure someone just to cheat on him/her or just PLAY(?) And why do people have to LIE especially on those small stuff? Small but weighs great stuff(?) especially on the first date? That's the time you lay your cards, show you cards...Why are they having a hard time? Why is it so difficult for them to be just their real selves?
Sigh... I just can't understand people sometimes. Why complicate something that is so simple. They just make life a lot harder...
Especially those good looking once. Just watched Average Joe last weekend and tears just fell down me eyes. I knew just how the girl felt. I was in his shoes far too many times.
I know there are people who've said that I caused my own hurt too. Why? Hmmm maybe because I choose to love good looking people? Hmmm PROBABLY but they did forgot the fact that they were the ones who hurt me. I only gave them the chance to be with me, and spend time with me.
It was their fault for saying such wonderful things bout themselves. Things that you want to hear, things that you were looking for, and well, as the girl in the show did say, "That's the risk you take with good looking people. They're smooth and you believe em and you get hurt...."
Sigh... CRUEL, CRUEL WORLD...I just love it here... Actually, i don't have a choice...MARS anyone?