the SUCKER when it comes to LOVE

something I answered way back September 27, 2005 a Tuesday at 5:10 pm and my reaction to it... daymn i'm catching up on all me unposted blogs hahaha

How YOU (I) are in LOVE

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.
You tend to take more than give in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

>>>Dang! Haha Grrr... what they say bout me is true then huh? Do i really fall that fast? I don't know, not really UNLESS I find something worth loving in em. I mean, i don't just LOVE instantly, i only TRUST instantly, as in a 100%.

That's how gullible I am? NOPE! Definitely not... I just don't see any benefit in lying and can't see why people are doing that LYING thing so much... COWARDS! That's all I can say to em...

And is what's posted above true? Well, only the person I love can find out...

But who am I kidding.. I ain't gonna LOVE again.. I PROMISED and SWORE!

LOTS OF LUCK! =)

-- See? I really am trying my best not to fall in love even way way back but then I did. i swallowed what i wrote and sworeD like about 2 weeks later? hahaha Think about avoiding but still falling... Gheez... Im a hopeless wreck hahaha

FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS

friends with benefits:

1. Two fairly close, or very close friends have the hots for one another. they do have some sort caring for one another, but it is not one of a romantic couple.a man and a woman who don't enjoy commitment like to fool around with one another because they find each other attractive.
2. This is another word for a Booty Call. Usually 1 person ends up getting hurt (the female) because her feelings become involved. Its rare for the man to get hurt because most men dont confuse feelings with sex like us women do. If you think you can accept this type of relationship thinking it will evolve into something more later, you are wrong! Expect alot of CLOSING TIME calls. That means the bar is closed and he didnt find anything better so he calls you for booty.
3. A safe relationship, that mimics a real partnership but is void or greatly laking jealousy and other such emotions that come with a serious relationship.
8. A physically involved relationship, where both partners enjoy some comforts of sitting on the fence between serious relationship and simple friendship.
9. Any realtionship that can only be catagorized as being between Friends and Partners, also refered to as More then friendsTwo people break up over complictaions of a serious relationship and decide to continue their relationship a step down, but not far enough as to have physical bounderies.
10. friends with benefits When men only want sex and don't want to commit to the woman they're having it with.

She's good enough to fuck, but not good enough to be my
girlfriend. Therefore, we are friends with benefits.

>> Some stuff i collected about FWB's way back June 10, 2005. Why was i interested in finding out what it really is? I don't really know, I can't really remember what I was thinking or what felt when I looked it up. All I know is that I've been into this kind of relationship.

Yep, most of it or the top reason for having it is because of SEX, the chemistry. The commitment, I don't really know what's the reason behind it but for me, the reason was not entirely on sex. I wasn't ready for the relationship because there was someone else I really love, and was hoping to finally fullfill or realize the 5years of loving the person. The formality of the BF-GF thing.

I'm not really stressing on the sex here, but the reason or something to say defend the dirty impression people will think once they know I've been into one. (i mean 'em it was more than one). Oh well, I've my reason, and that was what i stated above and aside from that, I was looking for the affection, the person (i mentioned above) couldn't give to me. I mean I was in love, and I was hoping (turned out to be false hopes) that "mag-KAMI". I refer to this person as the "LOVE OF MY LIFE" that's why I couldn't give in to the BF-GF relationship my FWB's asked of me.

Two of the FWB's I've had was just more on the sex, but one, flourished... It grew to something else, LOVE(?) Well it was, budding, starting love, if only I've realized it sooner, well, it would have made it to us. The other one, was just ALL FOR SEX. We just couldn't resist each other, as in the chemistry's way too strong too fight. Did it grew to something else? I don't really know, maybe its in the process but since I haven't been seeing the guy for some time, I couldn't really weigh if it made it to something else...

But see, the real benefit here, the real benefit that I saw was that there is SOMEONE you could run to. Someone you could tell EVERYTHING. Your feelings, the people you've been with or even tell bout your SO or someone you really really love (someone who means the world to you), or your crush, or someone you like... Because there really are some things you have to keep from your SO esp if its about someone else (you do get tempted or face it, your just human, your bound to be attracted to someone other than your SO, worse even have a relationship other than your SO) because you don't want to loose em or that you are afraid they'll retaliate, or that they'll hate you(believe me they will, only a chosen few wont and will forgive you). They will get hurt, they won't listen, you won't be able to really tell them the story behind it and it'll just lead to more confusion and stuff.

That's the real benefit behind it. You'll reveal your every all and you'll feel good and be thankful that they'll understand. BUT, then the problem starts there too. You'll then begin to admire your FWB for understanding, for listening and he'll admire you and realize that you're something so then you fall in love. Then you'll be beating around the bush (as to what i stated above) You then won't be able to tell this FWB everything because they'll get hurt, because you'll want em to love you or have a relationship with em. He'll then start telling you not to do this and stuff, not to see this person, that he should be the only person you'll see blah blah blah...

i don't really know how to end this, i just want to keep on talking but it'll just end up too long to read. So I'll leave you with this, If ever you want to be in a FWB situation, think about it, or don't think, just imagine what confusion you'll be in. Oh well, its your life and whatever will do for a person...

Im just sharing some views, and some tips.. A listening ear and a open mind works really good. The ears are made to listen, so do just that and don't let everything you hear come out your mouth. You'll never know and understand the real story unless you finish it, all sides of it...

Life, its just one of the many complications of life =)

MUST LOVE DOGS

A movie bout my life? Hahaha I wish i was that important that they'd make a movie outta me but hey, it still is kinda me.And why I watched it? Well, my officemates told me to watch it. I could very well relate to the story DAW! And since i haven't been in moviehouses for a while, i did just what they wished. Saw it, had a date with ma self...
And mahn, was i touched!Wow! It really was me, and i did have that very same views as the lead actress (Diane Lane) portrayed. I did those stuff, except for that pretend to be someone else, photoshop bods or pics and claim to be someone i'm not thing. I did advertise myself over some chatroom o'er cable before. But I didn't like described myself. For fun purposes only. Meet someone, make new friends, and acquaint old friends (since I've been chatting there since it started, was one of em prominent chatters)
I mean, does that really depict desperateness? Was I desperate? I might've been. I mean can't it just directly imply that the advertiser just wants SOMEONE to LOVE and do those romantic stuff with?
Why does people use it to lure someone just to cheat on him/her or just PLAY(?) And why do people have to LIE especially on those small stuff? Small but weighs great stuff(?) especially on the first date? That's the time you lay your cards, show you cards...Why are they having a hard time? Why is it so difficult for them to be just their real selves?
Sigh... I just can't understand people sometimes. Why complicate something that is so simple. They just make life a lot harder...
Especially those good looking once. Just watched Average Joe last weekend and tears just fell down me eyes. I knew just how the girl felt. I was in his shoes far too many times.
I know there are people who've said that I caused my own hurt too. Why? Hmmm maybe because I choose to love good looking people? Hmmm PROBABLY but they did forgot the fact that they were the ones who hurt me. I only gave them the chance to be with me, and spend time with me.
It was their fault for saying such wonderful things bout themselves. Things that you want to hear, things that you were looking for, and well, as the girl in the show did say, "That's the risk you take with good looking people. They're smooth and you believe em and you get hurt...."
Sigh... CRUEL, CRUEL WORLD...I just love it here... Actually, i don't have a choice...MARS anyone?

girls like boys

Message: Para sa mga lalaki….
1. kamong mga laki, kung mo tan-aw gani ang mga babae sa inyo, ayaw pod pag feeling2x nga naka angay mi nu? maka turn off na sha…
2. kung mag ask gani mo date, ayaw kayu mo ngisi nga mura nag maniac tan-awon kay mahadlok pod baya mi…
3. kung mo sabay gani mo sa amo, pag sinina pod mog tarong dili nang murag tambay… para mo samot mig ka in lab ninyo bah… pamulbos gamay, pangkolon gamay… panudlay gamay…
4. kung manguyab na gani mo, ayaw ug sulti nga "pwede ko manguyab nimo? or naa koy chance?" kay kung tubagon namo na, mura nag gisugot mo namo…
5. kung sugton na gani mo namo, taronga pod mi oi… dili kay biyaan na lang, usahay himuon pang sulugoon… maid inyong gipangita?
6. do not forget to remind us that you love us…para kiligon sad mi panagsa…
7. ayaw mog pangita ug lain kay wa nay lami!
8. kung makigbulag na gani mo, ayaw ninyo ingna ang girl nga "you’re just nothing to me now,understand!" OR "it’s not you, it’s me..i’m the problem".hehehe… sakit baya nah….
9. ayaw pud ninyo hulata nga kami mouna ug pansin ninyo if ever magkita ta somewhere mao ra to… walay masuko ha….
Message: Para sa mga babae…
1. Kung muingon mi nga gwapa ka, ayaw dayon tubag ug "atik!"…Panagsa ra mi mu dayg ug gwapa…obyusleh, kung gitawag ka nga "gwapa" naa jud mi enteres nimo… kinsa man sad kuno ang tarong nga laki tawagon kang "bati’g nawng! "atubangan sa kadaghanan…Di kaha mi katilaw ug plying kick ana?
2. Mangutana gani mi kung kanus-a imong RD ug kung abelabol ba ka ana, kana nagpasabot kung pwede ba ka ma detdet (DATE ba sa ininggles)…ayaw sa mi baraha kay magutana lagi mi nimu ug strait… amo lang gityming-tyming kay mauwawon man sab tawn mi mga kwanggolon…
3. Kung nakabantay na ka nga nagsige na mi ug sunod-sunod nimo, maka-baynte na mi ug grit nimo gud morning, or ikaw na lang pirmi tagdon, makig dungan ug uli bisan nort ug sawt, langit ug lupa ang gilay-on sa atong balay wid matching "Ako lang dala sa imo tings beh!", kana ganahan jud mi nimo… Pero sa pirmi natong kinuyog ug detdet (DATE sa ininggles pa), ayaw sad pangutana ug dali-dali "Wat r we?" or sa binisaya pa, "Unsa man jud diay ta?"…Inahak, makulbaan sad mi gamay…we also feel a bit presyur… Kalma lang gud…musulti lagi mi in dyu taym. =)
4. Kung kahibaw na jud ka nga ganahan mi nimo kay nisulti na man jud mi (hala ka!) Ayaw sad sige hisgot sa imo Ex-boypren oi…its hurt man sad…not unlis kung nisturya ka sa panahong gigukod siya sa inyong IRO nga nisutoy siya ug dagan kay por syur I will lap wid u.
5. Hangyo lang sad, kung nakakita ka sa imong crush o di ba kaha nakakita ka ug laki nga purting gwapoha, ayaw sad panguhit namo, "Gwapo kay siya noh?" Hala plis! Laki intawn mi ug dili pud mi kiligon sa imong crush… Masuko ra ba mo mu comentaryo mi, "Gwapo pa man akong lolo ana!"
6. Sa panahon nga mag-date na tah, por syur kami man jud gasto, be konsyus wid yor dayet ha para konsyus pud mi sa among bulsa…kung kada adlaw na ta date ug nakabantay mo nga chippy ug tubig na lang among gi-order, KKB na ta ha…salamat sa pagsabot.
7. But op cors labaw sa tanan, ayaw kaayo ni ninyo siryusuha kay basin mu comantaryo mo, mapikon mo ug ibalik ni ninyo nako, mamisti mo….Dyok dyok ra ni…
8. Pero kung dili na jud madala kay naglagot jud mo mga babaye ani…Iporward sa tanang babaye nga kaila ninyo nga wala pa makabasa…. Pagporma dayon mo ug grupo nga Gabriella (lugar ninyo) chapter….
9. Sa mga lalake, kalingawi ninyo ug porward pero ayaw sa inyong naibgan kay basin instant basted niya mo ana! Pahabol: Kung magpakuyog mo mirkado…ayaw pud mi paalsaha ug usa ka sakong bugas… Kilo-kiloha pud na….=)

just some ideas, and about MOI

When a GIRL is quiet;
Millions of things are running in her mind.

When a girl looks down,
it means she’s uncomfortable.

When a GIRL is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at you with eyes full of questions,
she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a GIRL answers, "I'm fine" after a few seconds,
She is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you,
she is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lies on your chest,
she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL calls you everyday,
she is seeking for your attention.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday,
she wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL says, "I love you",
she means it.

When a GIRL says that she can't live without you,
she has made up her mind that you are her future.

When a GIRL says "I miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more than that.

When a GIRL is jealous about other people seeing you more than she does,
it’s because she loves you and misses you so much.

The words above were once posted by someone. I do know it's corny but I kinda cried when I read it. It's just that I am, I mean I possess or do/did them. And to think I did and yet still I felt all those pain, the hurt, as in "OUCH", I really was good BEFORE (and I’m trying to be who I was back then, that good girl before) yet, people I've been with did those stuff to me. I never did anything bad... Why are they so much after the LUST? Or say why'd they ever had those bad intentions, or why'd they do those to me though I was GOOD? Just because they can? I mean we do have free will but certain factors still could affect one's actions right? And all I ever did were good; I loved them and showed it to them, still why did they think of such? Why did they still do it, did it? Because of my body? Because I look good for them? Because I’m enticing? Is that it? I mean I'm not beautiful, I know I’m not, maybe a li’l share but still not THAT beautiful. And bodily? Dang, I’m so skinny... Because of the way I dress? I’m just good at mix & matching & I know what looks good on me. That it? Or was I just tested? Or maybe played by fate?

I never did anything bad. I’m always doing things with the purest of intentions. Not unless I retaliate or avenge the pain they did me (the stepping on "THE PPRIDE" & the tarnishing of the dignity). Was it because I was just with the wrong men? They weren't like that when we met, they changed... Or were they wolves in sheep's clothing? And now, people think I’m BAD. A possible bad influence, kinky (or more like a MANIAC) & easy? And just because of what I say, post? My fault? I put TWISTS in ‘em, or I’m just kidding’ at times or half truths, or the whole truth, and so they judge before they even know which is which...) I mean JUSTICE, FAIRNESS, FREEDOM.. Where art these words? Why is it that people judge even before they know something...?

They might've been unbecoming of someone, especially of a woman but I only say what is painful, what has happened, coz I'm lost, coz I need someone to tell me or give me more reasons why these happened to me? I never seduced anyone, anybody... I never wanted to be harassed, forced, and raped... It's time, it's fate, it's my past... Forgive me for kinda doing those but I’m left with no choice, I was lost & alone...

Sigh... We can never please everyone, but sometimes, the people you consider as "FRIENDS" are the ones who judge themselves, and that's what makes it PAINFUL! I mean it’s ok if someone NEW would say that, they only know a li’l bout you, but for someone who might’ve been acquainted with your (my) life or at least know a little about it JUDGE you... Should one just shrug and let the people you consider special think BAD of you? Won't you at least say something to clear things up? But still, you can never please everyone. So I guess, you'll have to let time heal the wounds...

For the people I’ve hurt or let down because of what happened to my life, because of what I did, because of what I’ve posted, I ASK FORGIVENESS.... Forgive me if I can’t live the life you think one should live. I hope that someday you'll consider that THOUGH we are the ones who decide what happens to our life, there still are certain “somethings” we cannot control. I still am proud of who I am though I’m not clean (at least I’m PURE), though I’ve been astray (at least I followed my heart), though my past corrupted my mind (at least its now OPEN, and I understand), and though I failed at love (At least I wasn't afraid to love, at least I felt it, at least I’ve had the times of my life)...

I wish for you not to go through where/what I've been. It takes unusual strength to take risks; it takes a great will to still continue to live... wish fate won’t play on you too... But I do wish that you have had the times of your life, like I did...