I miss my hugs and kisses

I miss my hugs and kisses
I should get 12 each day

I miss my hugs and kisses
because you didn't stay

I miss my hugs and kisses
Even though there's someone new

I miss my hugs and kisses
because they're no longer YOU.

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made Sept. 10, 2010 while in the middle of watching Letters to Juliet. It made me feel emotional and I missed the hugs and kisses I used to have

YOU are CRAP!

when someone hurts you
and brings you so much pain
is it ok to do to them what they did,
just the same?
see i thought i was loved, coz i did love him too
but in a matter of seconds he's gone
didn't even bother to say "adieu..."
now why do people tell promises
they never meant to keep?
must you men always meant
to make us ladies weep?
i so regret the day i opened up
and gave you my heart
i should've known that just like them,
you'll just tear and break it apart!!!

SUPERFICIAL

would you choose to be Beauty
or be contented as the Beast?
Beauty has evrybody's eyes on her
and Beast has them too but, scorns
Beast of course, feels insecure and inferior
Beast has no ego, not a pride
not even a face to hold up high.
Beauty of course has this, FACE
which everybody adores and sometimes praise
And yet she is aloof, and is but alone
despises people who're after what's superficial
believed beauty should come from inside
but she's sad, seems this very beauty hides...
And time, fate, does crossed their paths
talking bout opposites, attract...
What separates them, only but eyes can see
a feeling but binds them
a feeling not everybody sees...
and yet something came
and it seems to break them apart
standards and culture dictates
does that mean they have to, say, separate?
Beast's ego was touched
and it was but Beauty's fault
she touched his pride
though she only meant
to open his mind wide.
a broken self esteem, he says..
you don't have to say what beast knows
you like slapped his face
a friend queen says
how LAME Beauty thought
why doesn't these people get what i see
superficial might matter to them
but, it never ever matters to me
for when one has a face, you can never see
the real motive a person, has for thee
for beauty has been used
she's been really hurt and torned apart
beauty vowed not to trust again
beauty cried and held on to her heart
Beauty loves Beast
but Beast's ego prevented him to see
the real love she has for him,
and the beauty he had inside
which only Beauty can see...
made: November 10, 2005 1606
argh... haha yep, the poet in me comes out if im low, or high or whatever...
and i made this for someone i was once with, someone whom i loved but kinda kidded around thinking that his godly ego would like come down from where it was only to uncover that he hasn't any and that i was making his pain his whatever plummet way down...
i mean i was hurt too, because i thought he has accepted his self as what it is. It really isnt that NICE a site but how lame to just base love and everything as to what's superficial? I mean i was like did you just come to me bcoz of what you see outside? Wasn't my love, my presence enough, doesn't it make up for those he lacks?
how can one ever love somebody else if he doesn't love his own?
i dont know but I am sorry for what i did and i hope that someday he'll realize that there's something in him that i saw. I hope he sees that too...

my SUNset

a Trying Hard Storyteller's (that wod be moi)
"SUNSET"
Spent a hundred bucks on gas
We parked, ate then talked
surrounding's way bright
decided to go drive off
Singing songs on the highway
Off the city limits we go
Smiled when the sun was to set on the horizon
but him annoying me, driving so slow
On the sand we parked
i hopped out quickly, walking wobbly in my heeled shoes
his laughter then left me no choice but take 'em off
he then teased me of my big feet
So down the beach we walked
I barefoot & him halfnaked,
he decided to go look for smoke
luckily my whining made us give up
thirsty and tired, we returned to his ride
opened the window, "Yesterday's dream" then echoed
both just shrugged then shooed the spectators off
There we stayed till darkness came
Silence then engulfed us
He moved toward me, a heavenly kiss he then gave me
he made me love that which i really hate
kissing some more i accidentally pushed the horn
told me to calm down while i laughed my heart out
the night it then ended with hankies on his head
driving on the highway, he notions for my bag
chuckles, he asks his empty wallet be checked
pictures were there, begged him if i can see
Only to find out, bout his love, and he
He drove me home, stopped then gave me a light kiss
I got off, my eyes following him as he went off
Something bad was then coming, something that I failed to see
Who knew that was the last day i saw and kised him
Why'd nobody tell me, memories i cod've made to remember
he's now with his love, and im left with my self to love
Who knew then that the sunset we failed to catch,
was the warning that that day was the last....

happened: "July 11, 2005"

for someone who made me happy even for a little while, i just want to repay the gratitude for spending time with me, for making me feel special even for a while... I'm closing my doors now, i gave in to the deal cause i was surprise that you took the sharp words i told you. You gave me hope, and Im thanking you for it. Its not that I doon't believe in love, it's just that all that happened to me showed me how painful it is, how painful the world is.. You became a good friend and you always make me burst into giggles, smiles, and I'm happy coz those smiles were true. Too bad you found someone you love and that someone wasn't me. But hey, i still want to thank you for the good times. I hope you'll be happy coz i'll be happy too, for you. But i would be much happier if you could still spend time with me but i know that that time was up... just stay happy and take care... I'll miss the way you annoy me. See you around =)

written: "July 21, 2005" 6:21 PM