modern times huh?

My dear Maxine,

I am very happy to inform you that I have fallen in love with you since Tuesday, the 17th of August 2001.

With reference to the meeting held between us on the 17th of August 2001 at 1500 hours, I would like to present myself as a prospective lover. Our love affair would be on probation for a period of no less than three months and depending on compatibility, would be made permanent. Of course, upon completion of probation, there will be continuous relationship training and relationship appraisal schemes leading up to promotion from lover to spouse. The expenses incurred for coffee and entertainment would initially be shared equally between us. Later, based on your performance, I might take up a larger share of the expenses. However I am broad-minded enough, to be taken care of, on your expense account.

I request you to kindly respond within 30 days of receiving this letter, failing which, this offer would be cancelled without further notice and I shall be considering someone else. I would be happy, if you could forward this letter to your sister, if you do not wish to take up this offer.

Thanking you in anticipation.

Yours sincerely,

Max

MODERN REPLY TO MODERN LOVE LETTER

Dear Max,

Please refer to your letter dated today. I am pleased to inform you that I hope to accept your proposal for romance. However, you should be informed that there are certain conditions of acceptance. Promotional prospects are to my satisfaction. Please enlighten me as to your retirement benefits. Gratuity should be generous. I also need to be assured that there is sufficient security with regards to this commitment. If there is any chance at all of retrenchment or consequent disinterest on your part, then I should receive monetary compensation according to union standards.

Due to the nature of my 'VIP' position, I am sure you will agree that an expense account should be arranged for my access as I shall be entertaining. In addition, housing and transport allowances should be in order. I might add that I have expensive taste and have standard to keep and maintain.
Please also note that there should be no moonlighting restrictions placed on myself.

If you are still interested in the relationship, please reply on an urgent basis as other prospective overs have sent indications of interest.

Please also note that my sister is happily employed.

Yours perhaps,

Maxine!

Well, just read this and whoa! Why hasn't anybody done this to me yet.. I meant not this clear hahaha...

But it is cool and very factual and yup, one should be compensated WELL for the entertainment done most especially if it is "MIND BLOWING" (hahaha)

I mean yup... so why not be modern.. 'least there's a time span and at least somebody won't be hoping and men won't be lying, hearts won't be broken (i mean heart, get a grip kim!) and yeah.. it's really cool...

So if anybody does want to date me or go out with me especially if i so told them i dont want to, why not do this. At least somebody gets paid and am i so glad that its ME! harhar!

a year old blah

=] finally found the song my officemate said was suited for me... I was inlove daw, they say.. I keep talking bout someone, always, as in all the time... Laughing and giggling to myself even at work,that they can't help but ask me what was i so amused about.. (Breathes...) It was just someone, i say... But they knew the guy, showed him to them.. We were pretty close then, even though we were just friends, we've been acting like...more? I don't really know.. He was just so pesky, irritating, annoying... I mean I, I vowed never to be in something like that again... Not to be or spend time with someone again. I was just fine, so fine, spending time with friends, my officemates, net, work, overtime, PS, I was just so busy...

Ahmm kinda have my fault, i was searching for friends, but that was just it, "FRIENDS", that was the only intention. So there he was, Bham! Landed right in front of me... I was so annoyed at him, he's just so, i dont know basta the most annoying person ever... Change pics, he liked me, I wasn't even interested... Ward him off, I did, all the insults, boasting bout what i did coz he really was annoying.. Told him i've done this, that... Basta every all just to not really have that connection? Well Yep, that was my plan before. But then after some time, like a ahmm 2weeks of pestering, agreed to meet him. We met, kinda thought "ngeeh"(?) hehehe Yah, i did that but kinda we connected, bonded instantly so found him interesting? Hmmm yeah, coz he was interested in me? i don't really know, basta i kinda felt something.. So that was it, he asked me out again the next day, meet him again then later that night, we like exchanged msgs till dawn...

So there we were, texting, conversing, seeing each other. Then i was touched when he sent me something, mga Ahmm beh say 9days after we've like met for the first day? Said "I really wanna be with you gyud. Words can't explain how i feel if mag-uban ta." Wow! I felt really good... i mean its been quite a while since i spent time with anyone or ahmmm say not gave anyone the chance to like ahmm be with me stuff. i liked it, i really did. I mean Ahmm beh its been quite Ahmm =) a month after hehehe and don't tell me tell me a month? and u said it' been a long while? hahaha Yeah, t might not be long for you but it's way too long for me.. I mean im used to having someone with me.. as in really really used to this kind of setup, i live like this.. If no bf's, a date here and there, left and right. Even my officemates and friends have lost track as to who's who...My demand is just like that... (hehehe assuming but yeah that was my life) Ahmm beh, the kiss... Well, he always tries to kiss me. But evrytime he does and i like catch him trying I just laugh the hell off, i mean its not that i dont really like it but its uncomfortable.. I don't wanna fall again, i've just been hurt then i'll just open my door instantly? no way! So yon i laugh then after how many days of trying, i finally agreed. Ahmm that was on June 24th =) (bag-o lang nahitabo right?) So that was it... we kissed.. and it was good... It was heavenly, i liked it and i don't really like kissing but that kiss, i liked it. Then ahmm after that say ahmm aah Hmmm 6 or 7 days after that he kinda introduced me to his bro. I was like silent, dumbfounded. He's the prominent family, rich, famous... basta he is and that moment, I felt that gap between us.. like basta, heaven & earth? Sigh i don't really know but when i was silent, when i was just sitting there inside the car with his brother behind me, he just reached for my hand (while driving) and gave it a squeeze then i think he said "Hilom man kaayo ka".. Darn! hehehe hook, line and sinker... he got me... (darn it my eyes are getting misty here) So that was it.. spend nsad some days after that, together, laughing, singing, driving around, parking... Thats how we spend our day together, if not watch movies, sit inside his ride whole day, parked somewhere, talking, singing and that is just the perfect date for me.. Just spendng time, even doing nothing as long as i'm like with him (someone i love or like not particularly him now)

Ahmm then the next saturday, he was like going to this party, for his godchild then his mom told him to bring his ex with him daw. (i don't know if which, the 6yrs? one or the recent) So even if we didn't like planned to spend time together, he still came to see me, even till 4:00 pm lang daw (that's like an hour lang coz i was out by 3) so we meet, ended up being with him till ahmm 6pm. Then a msg came, his ex, telling him to come get her na daw. So he just took me to where i was going but before i got out, he like said "Oh, asa man ka?" or like implying "why are you leaving me w/o a kiss?", then he like held my hand, stopped me from opening the door then kissed me, (light lang) then I dont know, i can't remember what he said after that.. All i know was dat i was like jealous? (coz that's an ex mahn!) he's like been with her, had feelings for her and he's like going to spend time with that girl till night, with his friends? Argh, that really hurt. It was painful. Then i dont know kinda asked him bout his date after that day, he said na nibalibad daw ang girl, wla xa giubanan and i felt good.. Then after that, the "SUNSET" story happened. Then 2days after that, after my fon got stolen, after i've like recorded our voices singing together and backed it up sa PC, i saw his ride, parked same place where we usually park, was with my officemates, they saw his ride too then he was like quite far from me but i can tell that it was him. He was like outside taking to a girl, sitting down, face to face. Really deep conversation i can tell. Then he like just stopped txting like he usually does, he doesn't annoy me anymore, he didnt do what he used to do. Then came the shock ahmm last Wednesday was the confirmation. He txtd me saturday after aking him na this movie is like out na, we're gonna watch it. he said fiesta man sa Carmen. Then after that i like txtd him again then he said, "Kadali lang ky nag-away mi sa akong gf." Oh my god, =( my heart.. i didn't know what it felt that time.. Then Wednesday came, i couldn't help but ask, "nagbalik na mo sa imo gf noh?" He said "Oo" then a msg after that was "Sorry".. I replied, "ok lang, i can understand" Then he replied "I was afraid" I asked him "Why" (for the afraid part, he must've thought na Why nagbalik sila". he just said "Nagbalik lang mi"...

That's my story now... And i'm aching... trying to win him back? I don't know.. I'm confused... I'll just let him be? I don't know.. Should i fight? For what? Ahhh... all i know is that that has happened.. and i'm just letting it be... Am i a coward? Maybe, maybe not... All i know is that, i miss him, the pestering, the vanity, the child... I miss him and i want him back.. i just don't know how and if it's possible, Im just letting it be....

haha, something i made way way back..

crap, im a fool when im in love.. like this was a year ago too hehehe

just posting those i made way way back =P

ex's, proses

i love you...
those three little words are like songs in my heart.
Over and over, i feel them, say them to myself..send them out to you.
And they never lose their effect, either.
For what they say is how i feel all the time.
Day after day, those three words never fail to remind me that the universe gave me the most rare and wondrous gift when it provided me with you.
i waited for you..just for you...before i gave my heart away.
There were those who came into my life and left as strangers.
There were those who came and stayed as friends.
But never could i give my heart completely. Because i was waiting for you.. Just for you..
And you were worth the wait..

>>>another prose written for me yet..."Sigh..."
Why is it that people could really pretend like this to just get what they want(?)
Be with another person even if no clear break-up was made, no talks, no nothing...
I wanted to believe he did loved me but seeing his actions makes me confused.
Reading his mails to other women doin the same tactic that made me be interested to him.
IM A FOOL to fall for his trap. But was it really just a trap?
Is he really a wolf in sheep's clothing?
I really want to believe he is good but then if i do so, id be hurt, wounded, stepped on, i just might BLOW UP...
I really am sad that the past just came to this but seems ive to accept things as they should be...
I really must bury these words in my mind, "IF IT IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE, then, IT NEVER IS TRUE..."
I learned that the hard & painful way...

--entries from my mobile blog-- way back Nov. 2005

this is me... i mean WAS me

Yep..dat was wat i am. Was coz am way more dfrent now.

Im rly rly openminded now. D experiences iv had really changed my views & d way I face life now. Im now an openminded realist. D way pepol think of me dosnt matter anymor. Im just livng my life. Iv MADE mistakes & i LEARNED from it. Iv met & been with pepol & dey'v made me who i am today.

Iv had my share of MEN & THE FUN. I played THE GAME but found out it wasn't for me. It was just a waste of time. There's more to life than love, sex, & pain but i've yet to know what it is.

Many tyms hv i askd God about wat He rly wants from me, y He made me suffer & feel such pain. But dn, im glad i realized dat i've been happy too.. Life is a gift, i just have to find a way to use dat gift well.

Well socially, i cod b friendly, bad, annoying, crazy, playful, etc. dpends on how u approach me n how i find u. I rly love to go wd d flow n tease sum1 but doesnt rly mean im n2 8.i just myt b bored.

In rltionshps, im rly serious bout love.im rly loyal, caring, undrstandng..(name 8, i did 8!) BUT, dpends wat d prson s 2 me coz i dnt rly opn meslf up n stuff f 8 aint worth it! Iv had my share of pain,i rly did.

Im tactless coz i dont lie. I rly dont unless rly rly needed.
F drs a prson ud lyk 2 make a deal wd, dat'd b me coz i always keep my promises.
I cod b unprdctable sumtms coz dr r days wn id lyk 2 test my mkt & n doing dat, i lost a bestfriend. i lost som1 ho codv made me rly happy. i cod b n denial sumtyms & iv lost quite too many QuALITY people coz of it. I just hope itl nvr happn agn. So 2 u rdng ds, gudluck wd judgng me. Like i care!

oh yeah... September 2005 hahaha

YOU are CRAP!

when someone hurts you
and brings you so much pain
is it ok to do to them what they did,
just the same?
see i thought i was loved, coz i did love him too
but in a matter of seconds he's gone
didn't even bother to say "adieu..."
now why do people tell promises
they never meant to keep?
must you men always meant
to make us ladies weep?
i so regret the day i opened up
and gave you my heart
i should've known that just like them,
you'll just tear and break it apart!!!