change change change again
who am i really... Hmm i dunno, i still am at a process of getting to know myself and it's so interesting haha
Anyway, first, i know i'm a she-male.. There's nothing feminine bout me, except maybe with my clothes and that's it. I mean i prefer rock/alternative music compared to pop/r&b, i like cars and anything with wheels in it, i prefer to sit and chill than to pretty meself up and i even like to ogle girls... OMG! haha I am very straight but that's really the MAN side of me. I'm so iffeminate and ive problems with the woman being submisssive and meek. It jst goes against the way i was raised. Ive been very independent since i was 8. Im jst rly used to doin stuff my way and doin it at my own terms that's why i so so hate authority.
And i've masks, people do see me as bubly and very very talkative but really it's not really who i am if you dig deeper into me. As they say, a clown smiles to hide his problems.Im just so deep that even i wouldnt wanna dig that far. Who would want to uncover patheticness anyway?
Hmmm... oh yeah, I can be really nasty too esp if im beyond my limit of being nice. Believe me, you wouldn't wanna be in my way by that time.
and i love doing things i've never dome before. I just want to make most of my life. Ive lived a life of regrets so now that im kinda over em, i promised not to do it the WHAT IF's agn. That sucks!
Oh well, that'd be all. If you wanna get to know me then get to know me...
Who i'd like to meet? Hmmm a person whom i can spend my time with doing stuff that i & the other person likes, be him a lover or a friend.
Ive kinda had enough with relationships. They don't work anyway! I haven't met the asshole who's willing to stick with ONLY ME anyway. How tough is sticking to just one person anyway that people can't do it? and people would even say that they're sick or fed up with the other person, that they know them that well thats why they go look and get to know somebody else, WTF! haha I don't even know myself that much even when i lived with just me as company. I even get to uncover stuff about me that i never knew was there before. (That's such a pathetic excuse, make another one!)
And ahmm i do have this big wall separating me from other people. i mean i got hurt Godamnit! what do you do to a plant that everybody steps on? U build a wall to protect the plant and that's what I do, did! Duh...
Im a loner though i wain that IM SO LONELY but I'm a loner. Well face it, i'd rather b alone than be with people who cant keep their hands to themselves or even them dimwitted people who doesn't have anything to talk about or people who do stuff which aint fun for me. I mean I don't really associate myself with people who has nothing to do with my life anyway. believe me, we're both doing ourselves a favor =)
basta, that's it. The only person who i really wanna meet is the person who can make me the happiest woman in the world, that guy who can sweep me off my feet, take care of me, Love ONLY me and BE with only me. If it's you then what the heck are you still doing reading this? COmE Rock My WoRld!!!
who am i really... Hmm i dunno, i still am at a process of getting to know myself and it's so interesting haha
Anyway, first, i know i'm a she-male.. There's nothing feminine bout me, except maybe with my clothes and that's it. I mean i prefer rock/alternative music compared to pop/r&b, i like cars and anything with wheels in it, i prefer to sit and chill than to pretty meself up and i even like to ogle girls... OMG! haha I am very straight but that's really the MAN side of me. I'm so iffeminate and ive problems with the woman being submisssive and meek. It jst goes against the way i was raised. Ive been very independent since i was 8. Im jst rly used to doin stuff my way and doin it at my own terms that's why i so so hate authority.
And i've masks, people do see me as bubly and very very talkative but really it's not really who i am if you dig deeper into me. As they say, a clown smiles to hide his problems.Im just so deep that even i wouldnt wanna dig that far. Who would want to uncover patheticness anyway?
Hmmm... oh yeah, I can be really nasty too esp if im beyond my limit of being nice. Believe me, you wouldn't wanna be in my way by that time.
and i love doing things i've never dome before. I just want to make most of my life. Ive lived a life of regrets so now that im kinda over em, i promised not to do it the WHAT IF's agn. That sucks!
Oh well, that'd be all. If you wanna get to know me then get to know me...
Who i'd like to meet? Hmmm a person whom i can spend my time with doing stuff that i & the other person likes, be him a lover or a friend.
Ive kinda had enough with relationships. They don't work anyway! I haven't met the asshole who's willing to stick with ONLY ME anyway. How tough is sticking to just one person anyway that people can't do it? and people would even say that they're sick or fed up with the other person, that they know them that well thats why they go look and get to know somebody else, WTF! haha I don't even know myself that much even when i lived with just me as company. I even get to uncover stuff about me that i never knew was there before. (That's such a pathetic excuse, make another one!)
And ahmm i do have this big wall separating me from other people. i mean i got hurt Godamnit! what do you do to a plant that everybody steps on? U build a wall to protect the plant and that's what I do, did! Duh...
Im a loner though i wain that IM SO LONELY but I'm a loner. Well face it, i'd rather b alone than be with people who cant keep their hands to themselves or even them dimwitted people who doesn't have anything to talk about or people who do stuff which aint fun for me. I mean I don't really associate myself with people who has nothing to do with my life anyway. believe me, we're both doing ourselves a favor =)
basta, that's it. The only person who i really wanna meet is the person who can make me the happiest woman in the world, that guy who can sweep me off my feet, take care of me, Love ONLY me and BE with only me. If it's you then what the heck are you still doing reading this? COmE Rock My WoRld!!!
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